Socially Awkward

So I have been thinking a lot recently about the traits that I have and those of other people that I would like to have. I have decided that one of my (not so good) traits is that I am terribly socially awkward. I don't always get social ques and sometimes I realize later that I missed something which makes me wonder how many I've missed that I never realize. Along with this, I am not well spoken and often say things that I feel stupid for later.

That being said, I have often admired those that have the ability to be friends with everyone. It is a talent that I've always wished I had. I often surround myself with those types of people because I feel more comfortable around them. (let me tell you, 2 awkward people trying to have a conversation is just really... well, awkward!) 

I have noticed recently though that a few people who I think have the talent of making friends with everyone have made comments about themselves being socially awkward. That made me wonder how many of us feel this way even a little bit and made me wonder why so many of us feel this way. Is it because we don't have confidence ourselves? Is it because others have put us down and so we hear their voices in our head still? Or something else completely?

I don't know what the cause is but I think that maybe having this "problem" has made me a little more understanding of other people's differences than I might have been otherwise. So I'm going to make a goal to take my awkwardness and use it for something positive. I hope that I can become a little more comfortable with myself and still have the drive to try to improve myself at the same time.

Anyway, that was kind of a rambling post but there you have it.